Father GOD, I am where I am.
I have done what I have done.
I could lament, and I do, what I have done.
I could regret, and I do, what decisions I have made.
I could chastise myself, and I do, for the choices I made.
But, what is the use?
Father GOD, I am sorry for many decisions I have made.
I am panicked over where I am right now.
I regret that I misunderstood how Blessed I was.
I am sad over the misuse of me that resulted in my recoil from the pain and shame of it.
Reflex to Recoil! Desire to Escape! Decisions, seeming better, are only worse.
Father GOD, please Forgive me!
Father GOD, please Help me to forgive myself.
And, Father GOD, Take from me that dread that I must have meted out against myself the consequences of my own decisions.
O, Help, Father GOD, for it is too much to ponder . . . and ponder . . . and ponder.
Father GOD, Help me to forgive others and myself.
Please, Father GOD, Forgive my failings.
Please, Father GOD, Release me into Your Presence where Mercy Abounds.
Teach me, Show me how to Know You and Trust You as my Provider and my Protector.
For You Are Enough, Your Enough IS Enough . . . Fully Sufficient . . . Enough!
Thank You, Precious Jesus, for Interceding for each of my family members to Open their eyes and Unplug their ears.
O, Father GOD, Help me!
Do Open their eyes, Please Unplug their ears.
Open my eyes, and unplug my ears.
For You Are Sufficient unto the Day.
Teach me! Release Me! Show me Your Way!
Take me out of fear and out of panic.
When I see no solution, You Are The Solution: The Problem Solver! None Better!
O GOD, Release me from needing to see a solution!
I have Now — You Provide Now.
I know from my past that You Do Not Forsake.
Ever Do You Provide and Always Do You Protect . . . Enough.
Teach me to Trust in the Future of Your Enough! which IS Enough! Always!
I make tracks now in the desert where is Your Provision,
Until I enter the Blessings You Have in Store for me.
Hallelujah!
Amen!